I figured it out. Motherhood means your heart is no longer inside of you; it's outside wherever my little boy is. And my little boy is not feeling too hot. I thought I was prepared for his vaccinations and I put on my big girl pants and held my little boy's arms down while they pricked his precious chubby thighs...three times. The look on his face immediately brought tears to my eyes. and then the screaming. oh goodness, tears were rolling down my face then. I didn't know I would react like that, but I just knew my sweet boy was shocked and hurting, and there went my heart.
So, I started looking up alternative vaccination schedules. I'm thinking of following the Dr. Sears' schedule where he will still get all of the vaccines, but will only get the most pertinent ones for him right now. Does he really need Polio and Hepatitus B right now? Nope. I know they are all probably very important, but I also know my baby was miserable. And my heart broke. And he's still not feeling very well. Anyone else look into alternative vaccination schedules?